I have a thought –
And it won’t go away – It sounds like me in my head…
The thought – seems to come when I least expect it.
When I don’t need another thing to think about…
I sometimes think – why am I thinking like this?
Why can’t I stop thinking like this?
I just think and think and think and think and think…
And then I realize – I haven’t taken a breath in a minute…
My heart is racing – my head is swimming –
if my mind was a body I’d be soaking wet
from swimming in my thoughts
or the cold sweat…
because I am still thinking about that thought…
Is this what it feels like to be anxious?
Should I talk to someone about this?
If I’m honest that idea just makes me think
What’s wrong with me?
Am I broken?
Why won’t my mind shut off?
Why am I worried?
I have a great life – people are starving in the world…
I have a full belly and a full bank account
And a head full of thoughts…
and now I am worried about being anxious…
Do you ever worry – about worrying about worry?
I think about that all the time…
I have a thought …
and it won’t go away.
Josh Zoerhof 